Reconnecting with Self

I reconnect with myself when I write. This allows me to experience how what & why I feel something at any moment. The act of penning down my thoughts sets me free.

Most of us can only be fully present for a short period. The same is true for me. But I've still been trying to slow down, listen, learn, unlearn, explore, and be curious about what's happening within me.

I am a multitasker and have a demanding role professionally. I get pulled in several directions simultaneously and operate in multiple environments simultaneously. I have been navigating life trying to make sense of whom I am distributing my time to across things like work, obligations, family, and passions. I have not been myself for quite some years, and just been feeling dimmer, stressed, exhausted, and irritable. 

Emotions build up over time and get trapped in us. But then, they manifest as bursts of unusual emotional breakdowns, unpleasantness, anger, irritability, negativity, and anxiety, signaling that something is off. And as this darkness weighs down, we are in a powerful place of transformation. You just got to trust the process and hang in.

The same has been my journey. I have sometimes felt helpless in coping with my emotions and situations. And finally, I have been able to break that non-stop loop of stagnancy and demotivating thoughts with my small initiatives. It's a start but feels better heading toward a newer version of myself.

Believe me; it takes time to get a hold of yourself, ranging from days to months and even years. You cannot define a period as to how long you would take to begin feeling better. But a day comes, and you experience the breakthrough. This is only when you get to reconnect with yourself.

Being heard, seen, and accepted is a potent catalyst for reconnecting with yourself. Sometimes we want to share our emotions and are not looking for solutions. So, pour your heart out to someone you feel emotionally comfortable with. This 'someone' may not necessarily be from your family or friends. It could be your therapist or even a stranger.

Break free from the habit of judging others and the fear of getting judged by others. Accept your vulnerability. It is an essential measure of courage that allows people to be seen and understood by those who are crucial in their lives.

I have now embraced my authentic self and love growing older. I thought I'd fear it when I was in my teens and even right after graduating college. But I've found that life continues to reveal greater insight, wisdom, and beauty about itself the more we seek to find ourselves.

Maintaining our emotional equilibrium is essential to be fully present for anyone else. Our professional and personal lives are intertwined. We cannot be distinctly two different entities in these two areas. Instead, there will be a common thread running across the two. Discover what it is for you.

What is it that helps you reconnect with yourself? Do you know? If not, then ponder over it today.